My greatest fear is that I am not enough. Not good enough, not capable enough, not faithful enough, not enough for what I was made for. This fear taints every aspect of my life. Insecurity drives me to be funny, to be an over achiever, and to withdraw. I yearn to lay it down, to find my identity in Christ, to believe that God will equip me for that which He has called me, but some how I never can. I have had too many failures in those places I know I am called to feel that God will actually equip me when that next time comes. So I over compensate. I strive. When I find a place I feel like I’m enough (or nearly) I throw myself into it, sometimes without enough reserve. This is not a blog that ends with how God changed me and now I don’t have these issues, or one that seeks advice. It’s my heart on my journey. It’s just my place to share real things because I know I don’t struggle alone. I know that I am enough, I just don’t feel it, nor do I live like I believe it.